So I'm still here, still juicing, just not so good at blogging

So I am still juicing, although nowhere NEAR fasting. But I am working towards giving it a real try again soon. I didn't set myself up for success last time. I had never fasted at all, and just jumped right it. I've learned that's a no no. So right now, I am moving to all juices for breakfast, raw plant foods for lunch, and then a reasonable vegetarian (not vegan yet) dinner.

so have I made any progress? Not really. I am down a small chunk of weight, but nothing to write home about. I am, however, continuing to learn more about the lifestyle I am trying to transition to, and becoming slowly more and more intune to what my body really needs.  I am starting to think more about nutrition and health, and less about weight and good vs. bad. I think I am making progress, and I am happy I have started juicing. I do find juice makes me feel more alert, energetic, and just all around good.  I also think it will help ward off illnesses and boost my immune system. 

Mia is enjoying some juice. I do mostly fruit for her and sneak in a handful of leafy greens and maybe a cucumber without telling her. She sucks it down as long as it is sweet enough. She also enjoys the "ice-cream" I make by running frozen fruit through the juicer. So she can always have a treat, with no guilt here. And, I enjoy it too. .  

So there. Hope to have more updates soon. A big part of my desire to juice was to enhance fertility. I start treatments in mid March if all goes well with my testing this month. I plan to really juice hard during that time.  We'll see. . . 

Still Here

So the whole fast thing didn't go anywhere close to as planned. But I've been reading a lot of books and websites on juicing, and realize I didn't set myself up for success. So for now, I am juicing 1-2x a day, and then trying to improve diet by eating more plant based foods, raw when I can. I am still having horrible moments of cake. And horrible moments of icecream, but I am having more good moments too. :)  The goal is to try a few smaller fasts in the near future to prepare myself for the longer one. I am waiting until after the holidays, because I think that played a large part in my inability to maintain program.  I am hoping to do a three day juice fast soon into the new year. :)

I am reading The Omnivore's Delimma. I really like it and it has opened my eyes to a lot of things that I kind of knew, but didn't know enough about to form an opinion. Now that I know these things, I think I HAVE to make some changes or else I am taking knowledge and completely ignoring it in order to do what I want, regardless of consequences to myself or others. That would be pretty selfish. I would really like to make the switch to only substainable meat/dairy products. After talking briefly with my friend R yesterday, I have decided I will not buy another egg in store again. Cage free labeling can easily be attained by ridiculous loop holes and I can make an effort to buy local eggs. Laying hens are ini such distress that they rub their breasts agains the cage repeatedly in a flip out motion, until they are bleeding and raw. Um, if there is another way to get eggs, that maybe costs what real food should costs, then I think I am wrong to continue buying so called cage free at the store. Am I going all animal activist? No. But the book made a good point. By letting capitalism dictate our food industry, we are throwing morality to the side. It all becomes about lowering prices, making the most money, etc, and not about the people who work in that industry, the environment, or the animals suffering. Animals are suffering not because they have to, but because we want eggs for 79 cents a dozen.

And yes, the hubs thinks I have lost my mind. :)))

Feeling good

So I have not been fasting at all. :(  But I have been juicing and trying to eat as much raw fruits and veggies as I can. Today I ate salad twice made with spinach, cucumber, tomato and cooked black beans.  I also juiced a few times. My new favorite juice is one and a half large sweet potatoes, one apple, four stalks of celery and a bag of spinach. FABULOUS. I also had a glass of apple celery, with one apple and three stalks of celery. Love that for a sudden energy burst!

I am looking into juicers now. I really want to keep juicing, regardless of weight loss or anything, I know this stuff has to be good for me.

I just want to keep moving closer and closer to a plant based diet. Baby steps!

So I've not done well

So I have not done well at sticking to just juice. I am very disappointed in myself, but I am not going to give up.  I have managed to drink lots of juice, which is good for me, regardless of what else happens. Right now, I think I need to just focus on adding as much micronutrients as possible, and see how my eating patterns improve/change as a result. I am sure as I get the nutrients I need, my cravings and tastes will change. I am hoping to move to a clean plant based diet. 

Oh dear gawd

I want to eat a pizza.  But instead, I just drank 1/3 of a head of cabbage, four cups of spinach, three large cucumbers, and two apples. @@

I claim progress

and nowhere near perfection. Today I juiced all day. Lots of greens in the form of spinach and kale, cucumbers, celery, as well as beets, apples, a lime, pears and ground up ginger. I was perfect. I was strong. And then tonight I drank chicken noodle soup broth. Yes, the canned kind. Cambell's. Mmmm good.  But I did refrain from eating the noodles or chicken, so I am going with progress.

I have no idea how that 309lb man did this for 60 days. And I really need to know, did he ever cheat? Because I can't seem to go a day without a slip. My slips are small, but still. . . .

Momentary moment of strength - with cursing. :)

sure beats the heck out of moment of weakness. At this VERY moment, I feel like I can sooo do this. I've got it licked. But I know moments like this come and go, and moments of oh.my.god.i.must.eat.pizza. will also arise now and then. I just hope I can remember this moment, this very moment where I feel like this is absolutely no probs.   I want to remember this moment fior  when that other one shows up. And then I want to tell that pizza moment to fuck off and let me live. :)